WELL . . . So much for keeping up with things! I had tried to post a couple of days of go(to finally talk some baseball), but I somehow hit the wrong button as I was trying to spell-check and I inadvertantly deleted the whole post. I wasn't in a position to write it out all over again.

OH WELL . . . .

Usually I am still asleep at this time, desperately trying to wake up. But for some reason I'm bright eyed and bushy tailed (not enough to get in the shower, but to do this instead).

It should be the usual business today . . . get Kids #1&2 to school and Kid #3 is home with me today. Not that that's a bad thing, but Kid #3 WEARS ME OUT! I wish I could find a way to bottle his energy . . . I'd make a mint on it! I've often told people I'm so glad he's my third and not my first otherwise I honestly don't know if I would have had any other kids.

But he has gymnastics today . . . WOO HOO!

Need to drag my butt out of my nice warm bed . . . and into my VERY cold house . .

OUCH!

OH MAN THE DAYS ARE DRAGGING . . . .

To say the past 10 days have been frustrating is a GROSS understatement! This time of the year is usually my favorite and has been ever since I was a kid . . . but lately I've been feeling like I'm drowning. Every time I feel like I'm about to get my head above water, I'm pulled back under by something . . . something happens with one of my kids, my frustration over my writing boils over, or everyday life just gets in the way.

I know it's because I'm not getting enough sleep.

When I was still working (and because the kids were younger) I had to get up at 4am . . . so I had gotten into the habit of going to bed by 10. But as the kids have gotten older, I've found I need the ME time at night when the house is quiet. Unfortunately that means I'm lucky if I get to sleep between 11 and midnight.

My biggest concern is that the less sleep I get, the bitchier I get . . . and my kids deserve better.

So I need a trade off, but I'm not sure if I can do it.

I know things will calm down after the holidays . . . I just have to stay sane until then. The good news is . . . I FINALLY finished my shopping . . . TODAY!

Now I just need some baseball to tide me over . . . more on that tomorrow . . .

Well . . . the lights are up, I have MOST of my presents bought, and we're getting the tree tomorrow night . . . everything is ALMOST right with the world.

Except for one little thing . . . my FREAKING EARS!!!!

I've had ear problems since I was little (glue-ear, got tubes 3 times) and to a certain extent they've continued to adulthood (I perforated my left ear drum when I was in college due to an infection that didn't quite heal the first time). ANYWAY, I know I have an equalibrium prob and had it checked out about 2 years ago . . . but never did the follow-up. Well yesterday it came back at me with a vengence.

Last night I started having dizzy spells. They came on so suddenly that I had to quit working last night and go home to deal with it. Everytime I bend over or lay down, it feels like the room is SPINNING big-time.

Thankfully because it happens during those time only . . . I know it's my ears. On top of that my left ear has been kind-of achey today.

If it's not SIGNIFICANTLY better by tomorrow I'm going to call my doctor . . . otherwise this had been a royal pain in the ASS!!!!

Everything else seems to be going well . . . the weekend was crazy busy with Kid #3 having a party on Sat. followed by Kid #1 going rock climbing w/Boy Scouts . . . then Sunday had Kid #2 and I at a Girl Scout function and then going to a pot-luck at church (which is 30 min. away) and I had to make a main course . . . it took everything I had just to breathe!

This week looks much more promising on the home front . . . now I'm just waiting to hear about what's going on with the MLB Winter Meetings to see if my GIANTS have a hope in hell of doing half way decent next year.

We'll see . . .

I have a VERY important question . . .

How many of you were as naive as me to think that once you got out of high school the concept of cliques no longer would apply to your everyday life? WELL . . . I'm very unhappy to report they are alive and well and exisiting within the suburban housewife.

What is it in our psyche that makes some women feel the need to travel in packs and purposely ignore or decide to ignore other mothers for what ever reason?

Maybe men go through this too . . . but seeing as I'm not a man . . .

Actually . . . I did ask my hubby once about how often he spent time with his co-workers outside the office. Did he consider any of them friends? He said he does occasionally, but most of his co-workers who he has become friends with have moved on and he doesn't see them that often.

I guess the real question for me is . . . how many friends do I need to have in my life?

I do have two best childhood friends (who both live on the East Coast) . . . and two very good friends who I went to HS with (who both live in CA, but neither within an easy distance) . . . I haven't kept in touch with any of my college roommates . . . and now it hard for me to say I have any real BEST FRIENDS who I go out with regularly.

And for some stupid reason I feel like I'm missing out . . . I wish I knew why . . .

Of course I can't forget that I do have a TRUE best friend . . . my hubby. The man who's made the past 19 1/2 years of my life very interesting.

Kids #1,2&3 are all doing okay. Thank Goodness!

WOW! I can't believe this past week went by so fast! I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving . . . mine was good . . . and crazy! For the first time I had a bunch of people at MY house and I LOVED it!

My mom, brother (with his family), in-laws, niece and her daughter were all over and the place was ROCKING! Especially since 4 of the kids there were between the ages of 3-5. Throw in TWO conversations with my best friends (one of them being EXTREMELY drunk during the second conversation) and it was a very memorable weekend.

To top everything off, I think we've turned a corner with Kid #1. Last night I caught him and Kid #2 whispering about something. He told me it was about something they had being playing earlier in the day. I didn't believe him . . . but I held my tongue. About a half an hour later when I was tucking him in bed, he pulled out his game boy from under his stuffed animals and told me that was what he and his sister had been talking about. They had made a deal to play behind my back. I told him in a very calm voice, "I'm glad you told me." He kind of did a double take and asked, "You're not mad?" I told him I was just happy he decided to fess up before I found out about it on my own.

He got his first taste of what it felt like to do the right thing . . . and I think he liked it. I just pray it continues . . .

Okay . . . now that Thanksgiving is done . . . it's on to Christmas!

I was SO hoping this past weekend was going to be nice and relaxing (well, as relaxing as it could be since it was the weekend before Thanksgiving). Well . . . I was WRONG!

So I mentioned about kid #1 getting in trouble last week about lying . . . well guess what . . . he was at it again. This time it was about going onto porn sites . . . on top of that, my hubby caught him actually on the sites!

Needless to say I was PISSED . . . and freaked out at the same time.

Thankfully my oldest is a very sensitive kid who's not very mature socially. Which is why this is SO hard for him. He has NO IDEA what's going on with his body!

So basically we scared the s**t out of him about catching him in the lie, and the poor thing was so upset, he sat over the toliet waiting to heave for about 10 minutes.

I got him to calm down, we talked to him about lying thing, and then hubby had a modified sex talk with him.

Now apart from the new protection software we're getting for the computer, and the fact he has no computer for the next week, PLUS no internet access until further notice . . . everything's back to normal.

If there is such a thing!

This is going to be an interesting week . . .

Okay . . . so I haven't posted as much as I wanted to this week (although I'm better than last time!). Today was a particularly stressful day . . . I worked in kid #1's class today, then I had to get everything ready kid #2's Brownie meeting . . . at my house . . . then I had kid #1's conference after that. On top of that, I had to talk to the prinicpal today because kid#1 got himself caught in a lie with a teacher. Never mind we just had a conversation with him about this 2 FREEKING WEEKS AGO!!!

Hormones are a horrible thing . . . My 10 year old has offically started puberty!

AAAAAAHHHHHHAAAAHHHHH!!!!!

Thank God for preschool!!! That's where kid #3 was the WHOLE day!

When I finally got a chance to slow down, by telling my wonderful munchkins I wanted to eat my Jack in the Box hamburger in peace . . . by myself . . . in my room . . . kid #3 decided to spend the next 30 minutes bugging me about the XBOX.

I really should have slapped my hubby upside the head when he made that purchase.

So right now I should be working on my writing, but I'm not . . . I'm venting instead.

At least the weekend is about to start! TGIF!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Damn! I can't believe it's taken me so long to post again! I wasn't expecting to do this everyday, but I was at least hoping to do it once a week! Unfortuantely all of it has to do with all the stuff that's been going on in my life . . .
Since my last posting I've been dealing with . . . a birthday, Kid #1 and his issue with one of his teachers, trying to get ready for Thanksgiving and hoping I don't have more family there than I was planning, and trying hard to get out from all of the CRAP that's strewn all over my kitchen counters because I haven't had the time to FILE, FILE, FILE!
On top of all that . . . Kids #1 and 2 have shortened days all this week because of parent/teacher conferences (one of which I have today). This is going to be a LONG week and I have a distinct feeling I'm going to be bitching ALOT this week. So anyone who reads this . . . please bear with me!

Thanks!

Hi there -
Okay, after thinking about it long and hard . . . I finally decided to start a blog. Wasn't sure if I could do it, but after I found out my two childhood best friends were suprised that I didn't have one . . . I figured what the hell!
My name is Lisa and I live in beautiful Northern California. I have three pretty great kids and a pretty great husband who I've been with for FOREVER!
Kid #1 is in 5th grade, Kid #2 is in 3rd grade and Kid #3 will be in Kindergarden next year. As excited as I am about that, I know I'm going to bawl like a baby when he goes. I never cried when the other two started . . . but #3's the baby . . . and definately the last.
I can't wait for fall to offically start here. The leaves are just starting to turn and the nights are getting colder. It won't really hit us until Mid-November . . . just in time for Thanksgiving.
I don't know if anyone will wonder about my Blog title - Big League Mom. Apart from the fact that I am a Mom, I am a HUGE baseball fan . . . even though my GIANTS aren't in the World Series . . . again.
I Hope I can do this . . .